why?

i'm stressed...guess everbody is anw...2 months left before the papers...on another note...some things juz keep running in my mind...i said on Sunday that i dun eat in school...but sometimes i do bring my own food...i kept thinking about wad u would think of me when i said that...i'm not crazy to starve myself...i kept wondering wad if u misunderstood me and not like ppl who not eat or sth...i wanna tell u reasons though...its like a stupid think to worry about...but thats juz me...i kept telling myself that i dun wanna become like her...but sometimes her influence is juz too strong...or its juz me...i dunno...i dun wan my prelims to come but i wanna get over and done with it...sometimes i feel like i hv to live with a mask...literary on not...is showing negative emotions equivalent to showing your weaknesses?it sure feels like it works that way sometimes...i'm scared i will become a me that i dun wanna be...i scared i'll revert back to my old ways...but anw...my tots aren't exactly ver organised now...i'm juz blabbering away...thats the purpose of this blog anw...and i'm being attacked...not physically though...i can't really relate it to anybody though...anw...gotta go study...after blabbering..i hope i feel :)